oh hey its me

Me, who goes for jogs wearing black lace thongs, glitter all over my face, with my hair full of that tacky glitter gel at 7:30 in the morning during finals week. didn't sleep.  pre-run, super pumped.

post-run, super pooped. and i only put this one up because i love you. had to do a double take:

see I was packing and watching movies till like 4, then I got depressed and whimpered in bed for awhile and looked up flights to faraway places. Then, i was finally gonna go to sleep and there were creep bug noises in my pillows. So, I watched another movie sitting up in my bed, away from the pillows. it was a tom hanks movie. called big. i've been on a bit of a tom hanks spree lately i just realized. which is weird, cause I hate him. forest gump, the money pit, big. jeez. anyways.

I wore my bling bling chicago bulls shirt. and my vickies puppy shorts cause I randomly don't have any spandex? what is that?

    butt cheeks! tiniest possible shorts. vagina length.

and heres an outfit or two i tried to take pics of with the compy camera.

not so great. but cute in real life.

also I decided this is the funniest picture of me i have ever seeeeen:

it reminds me of you. 

p.s. im goin for more red. second we get back= extreme glitter facepaint and hair dye sesh, in preperation for our adventure to the moon!

misssss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

love,

gilly

Winter Wear

My fashionable winter footwear. obviously it makes all my pants too short but i cant walk more than four feet without them.

side braid. jacked bangs. no makeup.

snow. princess. vest.

Doin' Shit Right

I mean if I'm gonna ref chris crocker I gotta at least do it proper. tip top pony action. I don't know much about clothes, but my HAIR LOOKS FIERCE!
I'm so happy to have a big pony tail to swing around again. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_UsW4bfS3c

I hope these compromising pictures of me and this video cheer you up at least a little.  love you love you can't wait to see you.

putting my pony tail on the tip top of my head

absolutely 100% backwards. anyways. you can't really see, but its up there. elementary/middle school status super tight pulled ponies and buns. its my new look. cause the sides of my head are finally just long enough.  This is from today, thats why I look so happy, cause i hung out with jane yesterday and then listened to fuck you 17 million times in a row and read adam smith's theory of moral sentiments which randomly made the most sense of anything ever and made me really happy. like i said everything is the story of my life. everything I read I'm like "OMG thats so true" the point is i had a good day which lasted until like ten fifteen when I got sad again. but so im not putting my pony tail on the tip top of my head in a metaphorical, chris crocker sense, but just in the literal one.

gretch's flowery dress with black accessories.
my new favorite late night outfit: panda suit + corny target sea foam trench coat.
only to be worn after midnight.
pretty outfits from last week:


new neck cozy I made:

SEA FOAM!

using a lot of similar elements here as you can see, not how I generally operate but my wardy is so limited here. i say as the huge pile of clothes takes up 47% of the picture.

this is from a poop day. got a dingle braid in there for good measure.
sups blury.
miss you dinker. 

be careful with your pony tail.

see you super soon.

have a good week.

love 

gilla

everything...

is the exact opposite of last year and some how still the exact same.  I am the one posting the picture-less, extreme depression post and you are the one happy freaking out about a boy. It's the beginning of the first semester instead of the end of the second. I ditto everything that was in yours at the end of last year.  I am the most miserable and lonely of my entire life, nothing makes any sense no matter how hard I try to understand it, I don't feel like I'll ever really be happy ever again.  I can't function like a normal human-being with out you guys around me and I don't think we'll ever all be together again. No one is obligated to love me or care about no matter how much I love them or care about them. I can't ask any one person to love me or care about me cause its too much responsibilty for one person. I am literally loosing what little social skills I had.  I don't know how to make friends with people, I can't be honest cause no one wants to be friends with the desperately lonely crazy girl, but I don't wanna lie or pretend to be something I'm not cause that feels fake and what use are friends who don't even really know who you are, and what am I supposed to do during the 4+ years it takes me to actually get comfortable being myself with these hypothetical new friends.  I have so much homework and am so disorganized that all I have time to do is swim and eat and when I do something else I screw myself over and feel terrible for not doing all my homework.  which has nothing to do with anything I want to do in life. I can't ask my parents to let me drop out, they'd be so dissapointed. and what would I do then? I'm afraid to leave cause I'll probably just fail at life somewhere else and then I won't be able to pretend that maybe this just isn't the right place for me. That its not here thats making me miserable, I'm just miserable and no matter where I am I'm gonna have to fix myself and figure out how to be alone cause this is what the rest of life is gonna be like.  I don't know how to fix myself.  I don't know what to do. 

everyone who reads this is gonna be like you should probably get some counseling gill. yay other people confirming that I have serious problems, that makes me feel so much better.  

i miss you so much julie. 

sorry for being a bummer. I'll try to be less of a mess by the time you come visit me.  

everything is the story of my life right now. its a disaster.

MY HAIR

my face isn't important. most 80's thing possible of anyones life.

my turn to upload backwards

This boy im matching is, im 90% sure, my actual real life boyfriend :)))

this is obvi the after picture lol

well hello there ms petersen i didnt know you were coming, hahaha this is how i woke up this morning what the heckkkkk i dont know what happened and by that i mean i cuddled with boy all night with wet hair and he played with it and brushed it out and then i slept on it and this is what happened.

funniest thing of my life.

this is liz who lives across the street i think youll meet her at thanks but i dressed her for a date. she said she wanted to look hot so i put her in my classic outfit and did her hair like i do mine hahaha.

i cant wait to see you!!!!!!! also halloween pics were unsuccessful seeing as i didnt get to wear my costume butttt me and liz are going to dress up this week because we are sad and ill take pics then and post the crap out of those suckers.

Hope your life is good and your making friendies. just bake a hundred pies and give them out and everyone will love you.

ps. baby girl showen them coochie lips looks like a baby wrap.

19 days till thanks

Dicks and matador jacket
I need like twelve more of those skirts in different colors. Goes with everything. Its pretty much my entire life.
Tequlia sunrise. 
aka the best color ever.
been wearing that neck cozy a lot.
been crying in my panda suit a lot.
the dress you wore the second time you walked in the formal collection of the show.
I tried to make another of the gray skirt. At least its legit wearable, unlike everything else i've ever made from scratch.
outfit from day after I made the skirt. I'm half trying to look creepy and half its just that I spent 7 straight hours making the skirt and so didn't start my homework until like 1 thirty and had to do my german for the entire week. 
the colors leaked out when I put it on here but my make-up matched tequila sunrise.

miss you love you 

see you so soon can't wait for you to come visit.

i would write more but i gotta run. call me.

back from break through Hallow:

all those tiny dresses of my mums fit me again. they look good in real life just the pictures are jacked for some reason.

i dunno why i look so jacked. cute in real life i swear.

reed hallow. matador except for not having a hat. or the red cloth. so basically just a normal outfit I would wear. I wandered around by myself and then did homework! then i got depressed and cried myself to sleep! best halloween ever! 

thank god. my panda suit arrived today. i am saved. i feel like E.T. in the part where he pretends to be a stuffed animal. I'm mostly just a stuffed animal.

the marc skirt fits me. hah. 

So how do you feel about this idea where we dye our hair red? I'm thinkin its a pretty good idea. real good. and by dye our hair red i mean see if red hair dye has even the slightest effect on our hair. I don't think it will, but im hoping that maybe it might for some unexplainable reason.

this picture pretty much sums up how I feel about life right now:

Get them pictures up girl. 

I want some Kesha all up in my face. 

and if you forgot and didnt take any pics then your gonna have to get redressed up and take some.  I'm not taking no for answer. 

nudie pics omg. 

also i think bee might be coming to get me for thanks weds night so we should hang out that night except for  how you will obviously be on house arrest packing for the two seconds you'll be in vampire land.  point is we need to hangout after so get home from forks fasssssttttt. friday saturday sunday play dates scheduled. red mill and red hair. 

miss you so much. you don't even know how unfriendly normal people are. where are all the juliesss? seriously though, where are the people its impossible not to make friends with? they don't exist here. Nobody likes me Everybody hates me I guess ill go eat worms.

love you boo

i hope everythings going good in bro town.